
I hope that's big enough to read. I somehow doubt it, as technology tends to hate me.
It's a brilliant strip. http://www.jimburgessdesign.com/comics
On that topic, I got the PS2 to respond to my TV, but it involved hammering a nail into the back of the TV and taping an RCA plug to the nail. So no one is allowed to tell me that I'm not handy.
The job interviews bombed. The one place lied about everything, including hours (not a big deal), wage (less), and qualification necessary (which I don't have). So I was angry enough, and then the other job called me an hour before my interview to say that the position was filled. So that was a bad day. I mulled it around in my head for a while, considering my options.
Which is a brilliant segue into the promised big news story.
I am very, very seriously considering coming home.
STOP! I know you're all scrolling down to the bottom of the page to fire off your opinion, but hear me out first.
This is why I'm doing it:
There are three things that I am looking forward to. 1) Shannon coming down 2) My Dad coming down and 3) Thailand.
Now I can see, and do cool things with Thing 1 and Thing 2 (hehehe) in Canada. Shannon's leaving all of our lives for a while anyway, and I wouldn't want to miss that last karaoke. Thailand is still a go, for the three of you who are interested. So don't panic.
Now, beyond those three things, I would just be working a lot, for less money than I could make serving at home, with more hours. I want to do Thailand right, and if it involves doing Australia wrong, rather than doing them both half-assed, I'll do Australia wrong. Thailand is more of an adventure to me; Australia is very similar to Canada. So financially, coming home is the right choice.
I'm not done!
Today, at work, when I thought about what it would be like to come home and see everyone that I've missed so much, I was smiling and singing and doing all those things you're all used to me doing, but I realized that it was the first time I had done them in a few weeks. Weeks! Can you imagine me being without song for weeks? Now we all know that music is the way to my heart, so, before anyone tells me to follow my heart or anything like that, I know where my heart is right now, it's with all you guys at home.
The conversations I have been having about coming home mostly involved me trying to get the other person to say that I should come home. I think that's a sign, that I want support for this decision. I think it's what I want to do. This vacation is supposed to be fun, and, for a month and a half, it was. Now a two month trip is still a long trip. I feel like I've done a lot here and I think I've certainly learned something about myself and the world. I'm not having fun any more, though. Now, before you say 'hang on, it will get better!', let me tell you that I've considered that. It will get better, it has to. But will it ever be as good as the life I have in Edmonton? I doubt it.
How much longer will I have that life in Edmonton? Probably not long enough. Josh, Shannon, Angie, Ed, Toni, DVB, remember two summers ago, with us all working at the bird and having the summer of our lives? I still feel that love from all of you. I want to be around to enjoy all of it that I can. It's where I belong. I love it.
Now I know that this is 'making me stronger' and that I'm 'growing as a person', but, seriously, I kinda like who I am. I know this trip has already changed me for the better. If I stayed, it probably would continue to do so. But I feel like I'm growing up here. I'm still just a kid, and I don't want to grow up too fast. Yes, I'm giving up, copping out. I hope you're not too disappointed in me for wanting to come home. I just want to be happy. If you think I'm weak, or that I'm walking away from the chance of a lifetime, let me know.
Just don't judge me to harshly.
And don't worry, I'll think about it for a few days first.
Wouldn't want to be impulsive.
Alright. I'm done. Have at me.